Monday, March 14, 2005
shit does happen
n i am experiencing it rite now...
its like a smack on my face..
im having a rollercoaster ride now....
one moment im ok..one moment im not..
one moment im, happy..the next ting i know im sad
one moment i feel good..the next ting i know..i jus feel damn emo..
dat explain why im crazy at times.....its jus make does tings go away sumtimes...
sumtimes it feels good to be at home..sumtimes i jus feel sucky being at home...
sometimes i jus feel my parents are unreasonable...
mum u r great mum... no doubt bout it...but when u get mad..i hate to see u...
i hate it really much dat i sumtimes jus walk away frm u
cant be bother to argue with u...
cant be bother to listen to u..
cant be bother to do anything...
sumtimes u can be really nice to me...but sumtimes u dun...
mayb to u ..im a big burden...
jus tell me if u think i am.....
u have high hopes for me..i know..
the pressure is piling on me...
jus becoz im the eldest n im the only son of urs...
i always want to impress u...
but when i come back with an A..be it acadamic or other shits..
u jus dun give it a damn...to u it jus an A...u want more frm me
dats y somtimes i jus cant be bother to tell u bout my achivements...i rather keep it quiet..
i jus do wat u tell me to do...jus to make u happy..
jus to ease ur burden....
but watever is it..u still my mum..im happy dat u r...
jus a little note to u....when u r pms..can u pls tell me...so i know..so i wont be bother to talk to u.
love u mum..
im feel shity rite now..
i really need to talk to someone rite now...
haizz
haZwAn
8:57 PM
Friday, March 11, 2005
the week been ok for me..
i got nuthing to post..its not dat i got nuthing to post..its jus dat im in no mood..
bowling on thurs-Fun
SAF trip-boring
tomolo is sat..
n i jus need to go out..
but dunno where to n with whom..
anybody want to join me?
mayb catch a movie..or i dunno...
feeling so down..shit me..
haZwAn
11:08 PM
Monday, March 07, 2005
there sumthing stuck in my head rite now...
its pissing me off..
jus cant get it out frm me...
mayb its jus me...
its like been with me for ages...
well...
dats it for today..
haZwAn
10:38 PM
Friday, March 04, 2005
thursday...
a floorball game against ITE Dover....
floorball mates are eager to play......
reach around Dover around 1730 hrs..
the hall was rather small for a floorball game...
well...Dover retain their players which are experience n skillful..
for us....we got a new bunch of players..rather inexperienced..
bout the game...
we played without boards so there is a "hit-in"
i was in the line 2
my line consits of airie.elfie.sufi.farhan n myself..
we had a shaky start...
within seconds we were down 1-nill...
"line change" frm the coach..
our line rose to our feets n began changing line..
i remember scoring againts dover during last yr tournament..
but i never imagine or thought to score it again
well..i did it again..
i jus remember i got a "hit-in"...saw airie running down the line
i went for the pass..sufi came through let the ball run n the ball went into the net..
my name on the scoresheet...wakawk...never imagine i could score again..
1st period..1-1...a major boost for us..
but inexperienced, lack of fitness n awarness is a major turn down for us
we lost the game by the score of 9-3...terrence manage to slot in 2 goals..
well a experince for us n mistakes learn...
we had fun during the game ...we will do better next time
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2nd of march...
went to eat at Gelare...
den went off to coffebeans..
umi.rai.nad n myself
we were dead bored..
lucky for us..i brought my Fx-7 along...
came to snap pictures n record some video..
umi n rai showing off their wacky faces...
cant really show u guys the video ..mayb in future i can...
rai Vs umi
for the world babi idols
staring Umi n RAi...
in the process of becoming a babi...
jeng jeng jeng....
eventually the world votes for umi for becoming the world Pig idol
rai cant believe dat she lost to umi
the after effect.....
haZwAn
11:29 PM
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
1st march...
i will keep dis in mind in the future...i promise...
im such an asshole...cant even rememeber my dad's bday...
had to sms my sis to get a comfirmation...so the malu...
anyway...happy bday dad...
u have been a great dad...to Ur late mum n dad..ur in laws..to mum..to yani n yuni n to Me
everyday u been out there to work...even on most sundays...jus to give us a better life...
hail to u dad...i really admire u...
i admire the way u educate us...
the way u teach us the principals of life...
the way u tease mum
the way u tell jokes
the way u work..
the way u tackle problems
ur attitude...
ur patience..
ur calmness..
ur thoughtfullness...
ur concern...
ur jus great dad...
i remember the days when jus the both of us catch a soccer game at the stadium..
the day u introduce me to soccer...
its always a main topic when we talk.....we would play together when i was in primary sch...
den the day when i got into the sch team for the 1st time...u secretly took time off frm ur work jus to look at me play...a pity... i did not play for the 1st game...
but i really appreciate wat u did...
u always give me chances when i do sumthing wrong...
always dat stern warning...
u understand me..
but sumtimes im pissed off when i get scolding frm u...
hahaha...well...im sorry dad..
but i really wish
dat i could give u my kidney...
i remeber dat day clearly..the day u was admitted to the hospital...
mum cried...yuni was always beside mum..yani was too young......n i jus dunno wat to do.....
everything went crushing towards us..especially u...
but u kept ur cool...u look ahead...u stand up after a deep fall...
financially, we are unstable
i wanted to work..but u dun let me too..
u want me to get my Os 1st..
well...i dissapoint u once again...but u kept ur cool again....
instead u encourage me
u scored an A* dad....
i wish dat i could get u off from all the burden...
the way u carry off the burden its jus so amazing...
mum is lucky to have u...
u are the best dad..
happy bday once again dad...
hope u can read my blog one day...
haZwAn
9:50 PM
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